This was said to all of the young adults at the last YSA conference. It definitely caught all of my attention. Too often are we guilty of doing this.. Confusing aloneness with lonliness. For instance, right now I am single. Single. SINGLE! Yes I'm excited about it, but there are times, like today, right now actually, where I feel lonley. Then this quote popped in my head and I asked myself, "Gina are you lonely, or alone." The obvious answer is, alone, but I'm not so alone! I have a life filled with amazing people. I am almost always surrounded by my family and very often surrounded by my dear friends.. yet still, a part of me feels alone.
I am in a very akward, different, frightening yet exciting stage in my life. I am a young, (23 to be exact) LDS woman. Who has graduated from college, who is interning & working, who is living in SSF and pursuing my dream of being a model. This is exactly where I invisioned myself being 10 years ago but cannot figure out why, amongst all of this.. I feel a sense of emptiness. Why with all of this excitement do I feel alone?
I guess the obvious answer to my dilemma is that I am single. Single. SINGLE. As great as it is for me to be single right now.. the next step for me in my life is marriage. This is why this sense of aloneness gets to me at times. This is why I overwhelm myself with the thought of being lonely. I tell myself often that it's ok to be picky, it's ok to pick and choose and it's ok to be alone until the right one comes along. I know all of these things to be true, but I forget at times, like today, like right now..
Some times I just need the reminder that I am not married right now for a reason and my strippling warrior is not ready for me yet. Yes Gina, that's all... so be patient. HOLD STRONG.. he will come along <3
I'm learning now, more than ever, about Heavenly Fathers "timing." The way he times our lives and our every days so perfectly that its hard to grasp the understanding of it. You were meant to do great things G. Women have never had such a strong and influential place in this world the way that they do today and you remind me of one of those women. Someone so strong, so independent, so fierce - yet still so kind hearted and tender. He didn't put you here to fail or be alone, He just needs you to trust in Him. I guess that's the hardest part though! Trusting in something we just don't fully understand. You got this. :) I'm excited to see what your future holds. MISS YOU!
ReplyDeleteThank you Laila! Your words really mean a lot to me! Love you!
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